Therapy

I've made a decision to start therapy.  Mostly to deal with the feelings I have about Ian, our family size, the pregnancy/miscarriage.  All of that.

I feel angry, resentful and sad. I have so many emotions and I'm feeling them all at the same time.  Most of the time, I just feel really screwed up. Insane.

Its not pretty.  I don't want to talk about it with friends or family.  I don't want to be such a negative downer. I don't want to be depressing.  I want to be fun and positive and grateful for what I have.

But in truth, I'm really not feeling that way right now.